"I am ready to die now, but I’m only fifteen this year.

There are over 6 billion people in this world; my death is unlikely to stir up the world.
There are over hundreds of people dying everyday.
Who cares about my death?
Who shall mourn over me?
Who shall miss me?

From the rooftop, I gaze at the depths below.
I have been fortunate to live in this world for fifteen years.
At least, I’ve experienced the full spectrum of happiness and misery by now.
At least, I have not lived in vain.
At least, I have experienced the kind of love that most people could only hope for.

The sun is brightening up the heavens.
After today, I will become one of the stars above.
I will look down at the world where I used to live in.
Images invade my mind, pounding against my temples.
They are memories: images of my life.
Jolene,Weiting,Irene, my family, my loved ones;
they suddenly seem so near to me, yet strangely so far away…
I cannot reach out to them anymore.
I will jump off the building; I will die; I will be shattered to pieces…
But, once I die, my memories will be resurrected; they will merge to form the story of my life.
Once I receive the prayer from my girl, I will guide her to the right decision,
and wish her the best that life has to offer.
After that, I will transform into a shooting star and scale the heights of heaven.
That is, when I am dead.'"


I totally hate schooling nowadays.
Everything sucks man.
Its just the start of the year and i'm thinking of commiting suicide for like almost 4 times -.-
I don't really know what to do, can someone guide me through ?

I joined T4I today, okay, tomorrow will be having reunion dinner with them.