This morning, the sky is raining damn heavily.
Thought still can go and jog after my dad opens the door, but...nevermind.
I slept through the whole day, from morning 9am till just now 4.15pm.
Someone please please, drag me out & play?
I'm going lazier and lazier :(

I've already initiated a way out for the both of us, why can't you just talk to me like how you used to? :(
Maybe things won't change afterall.
I want the past time to be back, i want to be the 'self' i'm in the past, without having to worry about f/s and r/s.
Bring me back would you? sighh.
I'm the one being naive here thinking that we could have been like what we've been before.
Thankyou, silence means what? Not consent. Idk you, you're totally not predictable at all.
I've tried so hard to gain trust from you, now i finally know why i can't..
You've lots of people to confide in and most probably i'm at the end of your list or maybe not even on it.
Or, the fact is, you have just knew me this year, i don't look trustworthy to you.
Or maybe in fact, to everyone, fine, i shall don't care for anyone.
Befriend with me or not, choose yourself.
You said you'll go through 2009 with me, so what about now?
You led me through half-way and both of us are lost?
I thought i could've started this year not really smoothly and friend will be there to lead me through..
But now, i guess, there's only one person left to guide me through this year together with me.
I know you don't even care at all and most probably you won't even read this.
Yeah, but i just felt like typing this out.
You seems to be avoiding everything i've came to ask you, i'm just trying to know how you feel & think,
as i said, your super unpredictable.
Fine, i shall end all my nonsense here and today.

Maybe i just treat things too seriously, shall treat them lightly now? is that it?
Maybe only 1 person can actually understand what i want.
All i want is a friend, not someone close to me, or is attached to me,
but is someone i've work hard for and i've put in effort, thats the friend i want.
I want to use my effort to make friends? Just treat me better and thats all i ask for.
I know , i'm stupid and just trying to make things complicated.
I only know that i make friends without motive and i'm true to everyone.
I want the best for my friends, never for myself -.-
I should have see this day coming, idiot :(
I guess no one needs me anyway! :D
Why not lead my life happier alone maybe? I'll try to ;D

I must have been the lousiest friend you ever had, hahhaaahaha...